Diary Entry: Welcome Back?

Hi,

I don’t event know where to begin with this… I had every intention during lockdown two years ago that I would be this cool blogger girl, get it going and then the real fantasy of quitting my job to do something like this full time kicked in. And let’s face it, that is never going to happen… I don’t think I’m built for that lifestyle, I’m far to self-conscious of what other people think of me. (Hello people pleasing tendencies)

Anyway, life has gone on since lockdown and I have had a baby and gotten married and moved, all within a years time. I have shoved some of life’s greatest “milestones” into one calendar year and I could not be more exhausted and humbled by the joys all of these things have brought me. My life has grown from many changes and lifestyle changes and schedule changes, that blogging was the easiest thing to be forgotten about into the abyss of my computer. Now that we are coming up on a year of settling in our home, 3 months of marriage and our daughter is 13 months old, I’m feeling like dipping my toe into blogging again… Too much too soon? We’ll see.

One thing I would like to challenge myself with, is finding my outlet to have a sense of self. One thing I have realized recently is that I tie a lot of my identity with my job. And now with motherhood my identity is even more muddled (in the best way possible). I sadly, have hit a breaking point with losing myself and who I am, and I’m hyper aware of certain qualities I have that I don’t necessarily like or consider constructive. I am rambling… but I want to challenge myself to do things I enjoy and be a person I am proud of, and that Avery and Tyler would be proud of. I am more than my job, I am more than a mom, I am a lot of things! Now in this motivational last paragraph, you may be thinking “okay calm down, it’s a blog..” But for me this is way more than that, it is a way to continue to push myself to be better, talk about things that might be uncomfy but healthy to express. So welcome back to the blog, where I am going to show my life one post at a time.

Thank you for reading…